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Thursday, November 08, 2007 Y 3:28 PM hihi... Today was not a very good day for me...SOMETIMES, i can clearly c from my family as in my paternal and maternal side, what is NO MONEY NO TALK...Now i do understand a little..if u hab no money, u can dun even tink about family ties sometimes... Don't really said that I side my dad but I do tink that my paternal aunt was in the wrong too...she should be more hygiene conscious as my ah ma gt say that her bowl was for ppl and not for her dog for consumption...although she says that her dog din lick the bowl but the way she put near her dog's mouth...i mean she also needs to know the basic hygiene knowledge...Dun tell me that when u eat finish ur food u put back into the cabinet...do u tink tis is hygiene?..of coz not rite... The way that i think is sometimes very ambitious is because of the kind of society and the kind of family ties that forces me to do so....I NO LONGER KNOW THE FEELINGS OF HAPPINESS AND WARMTH IN A BIG FAMILY (in my paternal side) where most of the ungrateful people is... Sometimes, people are envious of me having a warmth and cosy family (as in not inculding my paternal and maternal side). But, I don't think of it when it comes to the big family where I am not really having a warmth and cosy big family...My maternal side was indeed much better than my paternal side I must say..where in my paternal side, I SAW MANY UGLY SIDE OF THIS SOCIETY... Sometimes, I feel that the only people that are good to me are my sis, my parents, my ah ma and my friends which includes my hao jie mei...my fifth paternal aunt still not bad With the mindset of the ugly of the society, I SOMETIMES REALLY WISH I CAN JUST LEAVE THIS PLACE FOR ANOTHER PLACE WHERE I CAN REALLY KNOW WHAT HAPPINESS AND WARMTH OF A BIG FAMILY IS... Sometimes, I do wonder why GOD created so many kinds of people in this world? Is it a form of challenge and lesson to teach us and let us learn from what we have in our daily life... Sometimes, i really feel that no one understands the meaning of "being content with what you have"? Do people nowadays really understand the meaning of "being content with what you have"...Sometimes, I oso not sure of it myself...but now I must try my best to be content with what I have and not request much... Like what Fei Lun Hai's Wu Zun said in a magazine interview, 亲情是金钱, 名誉都买不到的...言语是廉价, 心意才是珍贵的...i truly agree...so i must always tell myself not to quarrel with my parents..but sometimes even if i quarrel with them, i myself will also cry because deep in my heart i just wanna tell them that i dun even wanna quarrel wif them in 1st place...so every time i quarrel i will cry cos i feel so guilty after that...BUT, I JUST BASICALLY WANNA TELL THEM HOW I WANT SOME FREEDOM TO B GIVEN TO ME... I WILL MAKE SURE I WILL BECOME MORE SUCCESSFUL THAN THEIR KIDS IN THE FUTURE..i want them to regret it...This is what they forced me to become...don't blame me for being cold blooded next time if i were to change... That's all...going to do my FYP codes..byebye.. |
The Idiot. ♥Veronica Tan 20 working loves chinese pop music LEARNING JAP NOW!!! TIME NOW IS...
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